Living Alone in Thoughts

What is life without feelings?
How is living without sensation?
Living in the physical/material world but actually lost in one's thoughts is a tragedy in the theater of comedy of life!

Lifeless Entity

Losing one's soul is probably the most difficult thing that can ever happen. It is not death as we know it; when your soul leaves your body. It is when you lose the liveliness and joy of existence. It is when the dark shadows steal the light of life.

Agony?!

Our judgment and assessment of things have been through a lot of changes. It is so weird that we used to view things with our emotions and preferences during adolescence disregarding religious and social values, and the consequences of our actions. Our judgment was based on self-fulfillment, pleasure, selfish achievements and interests, and definitely achieving popularity.

As grown-ups, it is completely different. The judgment and assessment of things are much aware of religious and social values, and most importantly, the awareness comes from the inside in most instances. It does not aim at achieving personal goals or popularity.It is much wiser and self-conscious of what should be said and done, not of what is liked or preferred.

That is why we feel in agony with ourselves in order to find what we really are, and at the same time not to be judged by the others and violate any religious or social rules. Should we express our inner thought, orientations, and tendencies? Or should we just follow what our values tell us to do?

Light and Darkness

Darkness and light are two concepts that clash and meet at the same time. The combination of the two are considered a form of hypocrisy or schizophrenia that many people enjoy.
Darkness isn't always a negative concept. It is vague and misunderstood.
Light isn't always positive. It is overestimated and adorned.
Both exist within the soul. Yet one can overcome the other, as in the fight between good and evil.

Matter of Growth

As we grow, the mind would grow; the body would grow; the heart would grow; awareness of the world would grow; worries would grow; concerns would grow; responsibility would grow; social life would grow; loneliness would grow; lack of interest in life would grow; lack of desire of learning would grow; lack of desire of living would grow; the desire of death would grow.

Ultimate Happiness

The concept of happiness seems nonexistent. It could be a synonym of money; it could be a synonym of beauty & grace; it could be a synonym of foods & drinks; it could be a synonym of love & passion; it could be a synonym of possession & control, it could be a synonym of luxurious living; it could be a synonym of deep slumber and restful nights.

It could be in the smiles of children; it could be in the tears of success; it could be in helping the others.

But the ultimate happiness is to find peace of mind.
Happiness is way too far from being realized.

True-self

It's so hard to create a fake identity -fake name, fake life, fake interests - a complete different person. Yet, what is even harder is put up the real identity to the public. But, what is the real identity? Who is the real true self? How can it be shaped?

It is impossible to show the real identity to everyone for there isn't any. It is well-controlled by the society. Sometimes, the real identity has certain orientations and practices that do not go well with the society's in which a person lives. The society disapproves these orientations and practices, even if there's nothing wrong with them religion-wise, and even if the society feels inside that they are okay! Hence, the true self and the real identity disappears and the person becomes soulless, aimless and completely lost just searching for true self.

We sometimes create "a true self" which is actually fake, and we adopt it for some time for a specific reason and perhaps a specific audience. Yet, this "true self" soon becomes so boring and unappealing. Then the true "true self" is provoked to appear and dominates the fake "true self."

Then, a moment of truth comes, and the person finds out that not reflecting or not living, or even feeling, the fake "true self", even in a fake world like the cyber space for example, gives a hard time and soon they should return to their own old selves.

When finding the true "true self", peace of mind and self-confidence come along with it. For the person will be their own true selves and they don't have to fake anything anymore. A person can only reach this level of true-self recognition when reaching maturity.

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